My Rants

The question "Who am I?" was put to me a few weeks ago. This question has been the hardest question for me to answer. It seems such a simple thing, a three word question. Right after this question was poised and there was no simple answer the following question was poised: "Who I am not?". That was easier to answer. It did not however give me any clearer an answer for "Who am I?".

Ask yourself "Who am I?". Give yourself sometime to reflect on this. If no simple answer is forth coming then ask yourself "Who am I not?". See if that helps you answer the first question.

I gave myself time to think on the first question. It was about two weeks later when an epiphany occurred.

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I am the sum of all my experiences!

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What this means is that I am the person I am due to all of my life's experiences. What experiences shape my life are my choice. This is a big thing. It means that I am responsible for who I am. I use to sit and think about how unfair things were. How it was that others could control my life so easily. Well I have come to realize that they could do that due to my allowing them that power. I let them shape my experiences and so shape me. Well I can look back and see what experiences have shaped who I am now. I can also choose what experiences I have now to change me. I can choose to go into a neutral experience with a negative outlook and find at the end a negative experience. I can also go into the same neutral experience with no outlook and let it play out the way others wish. I could also go into the neutral experience with a positive outlook and have a positive experience. This sounds easy. It is not so easy to go from negative outlooks to positive outlooks. However it is possible.

Slowly you must change your mental state. Keep a short rein on your thoughts. Check them often and notice what it is that triggers the negative then work on that trigger. It works! I am not a positive outlook person yet. I am a negative outlook person no longer. I am a person who is working on changing his structure. My foundation was laid and is solid. I just had to clear the clutter and debris left from other peoples lives. Now that I have done that I am free to build the me that I wish to be.